|| I hold this light between my hands ||

I made cookies :D

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 10:18:50 GMT

Well, it was with premade cookie dough, but still.. they turned out very well, and they're crispy and delicious. :)

Now I'm watching a program about tigers in India, and.. it's sad, they're talking now about the likelihood of death for baby tigers. Poor babies. They're really cute, too. And the adults are beautiful, too. I want one! xD

I also watched a documentary about geisha today that was really interesting.. um, and I did some other stuff, but most of it wasn't even very fun. I've got a big paper due today, and another next week.

So, mostly, yes, I've been studying again. Is that a little sad? I managed to see Miya-chan the other day, though, which was nice.

Umm. Other news, other news.. nothing, really. D: I'm so boring. Oh well.

How is everyone else?

- Hikari

[..a long time out?]

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 04:01:00 GMT

I'm sorry, everyone. I've been gone for a while, haven't I? I thought I would be around, but I got sick. Really, coughing, sneezing, hundred-and-one degree fever sick. I'm back now, though. I'm back, and I have pocky, and anime (Kiddy Grade :D).

I also have a new favorite singer - Mizuki Nana. I got her "MUSEUM" album, and it's.. incredible. I love her song "-suddenly- meguriaete". ^^

..how is everyone? I've heard a few things, but like I said, I've been away and haven't really seen anyone. I'm sorry, minna.

Anyway.. I'm going to go and finish the drawing I was working on in my sketchbook. I'll be out and about, though, as of tomorrow. Don't worry - I'm no longer contagious.

- 'Kari

{tiny OOC note: Hikari's out of the loop on the Miya-chan thing because she's been sick. This is my cover story for why I haven't been posting. >>; sorreh. As it turned out, I didn't have interweb over the break xx; }

{note the second: New icons for 'Kari :D :D :D }

I post too much

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 09:12:49 GMT

I've been.. unproductive, but I did get one neat thing done! I have a custom moodtheme now. On this journal. It's cats. Cute, isn't it? :)

And now.. work, then school. Work, I say, because I have a paper due that I should be working on, instead of uploading moodthemes.. but it was fun!

It's five o' clock in the morning, and your local Hikari has gone insane.

Now it's off to the races. Jya!

- Hikari

Stealing memes from Taichi-niisan!

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 23:02:17 GMT

Name: Hikari

Sisters: None.

Brothers: One.

Shoe size: Umm. I'm an American 6, but since the last time I got shoes was from an American website (Mom ordered them for me :D), I don't remember my real size.

Height: 4'10". Shush.

What are you wearing right now?: Umm. A black t-shirt and blue jeans.

Favorite Number: 4 :)

Favorite Drink: Orange juice.

Favorite Breakfast: Toast with jam.

Have You Ever:
Bungee jumped?: Nope.

Made yourself throw-up? No, but I have coughed until I threw up. xx;

Gone skinny dipping? No.

Loved someone so much it made you cry? Hai.

Broken a bone? Actually, no.

Been in a police car? Once.. but it was because the police officer thought I had run away from home and insisted on giving me a ride back. ==;

Been on a plane?: No.

Came close to dying? Mhmm.

Been in a hot tub? Yes! They're nice.

Swam in the ocean? *nod*

Fallen asleep in school? Only once or twice.

Broken someone's heart? I don't think so..

Cried when someone died? Yes.

Cried in school? Yeah.

Fallen off your chair?: Yes.. it's worse when you fall off of a stool, though. Higher up. xx;

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call you? Yes.

Been cheated on? No.

What is:
Your room like: Actually clean for once.

Whats right beside you? A little table covered in books and CDs. And tissues. And a phone. And... maybe my room isn't as clean as I thought. >>;

Left?: That way.

Ever Had:
Chicken pox? Yep.

Sore throat? Of course.

Stitches? Not too often, but yes.

Do You:
Believe in love at first sight? No.

Like picnics? Sure!

Like school? It's tedious, but alright.

Like to play sports? Not really.

Questions:
Who was the last person you called? Miyako.

Who was the last person you danced with? ..I don't really dance much.

Who/what makes you smile? At the moment? The nice weather - well, kind of nice. It's nice and cool, and it rained earlier, so it's damp. But it's not too cold, you know?

Who:
Did you last yell at? I don't even remember.

Do you like filling these out? Sure!

Do you wear contact lenses or glasses? No.

Do you like yourself? Nn. It.. varies.

Final Questions:
What are you listening to right now? Some American/English music.

What car do you wish to have? I don't want a car. ^^;

Where do you want to get married? Hmmm. I don't know! Will I even get married?

Good driver? I never have.

Good singer? I'm okay.

Diamond or pearl? Diamonds have more shine. :D

Are you oldest? Nooo.

Indoors or outdoors? Indoors.

Today did you:
Talk to someone you like? Yes, at school.

Buy something? A soda.

Get sick? No, thankfully.

Sing? Yes.

Talked to an ex? No.

Miss someone? Yes.

Last person who:
Was in your bed? Er, me.

Saw you cry? Taichi, I think.

Made you cry? ...no comment.

Went to the movies with? I haven't gone to the movies in forever!

Random:
Been to Mexico? No.

Been to Canada? No.

Been to Africa? No.

Do you have a crush on someone? *shrugs*

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? Yes.

What's under your bed? Umm. A spare duffel bag (just in case), a couple of cardboard boxes full of papers and things..

Favorite sport to watch? I don't watch sports.

Favorite location? My room.

Piercings? Just my ears.

What are you most afraid of right now? Falling asleep during school tomorrow.

Who do you really hate? Nobody.

Who hates you? I.. like to think no one, but I guess I shouldn't be that idealistic.

Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with? Yes.

Are you lonely right now? A little bit.

Have you ever played strip poker? No.

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

Briar grinned - Rosethorn was always convincing - and took a velvet pouch from the workbag. Carefully he slid out its contents: a round lens four inches across, its edges bound in a metal band, fixed to a metal handle. He passed it to his teacher. [Tamora Pierce, The Circle of Magic (book four): Briar's Book]

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can and see what you touch.
My alarm clock.

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
A cooking show. :3

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
Six forty.

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
6:44pm.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The music I'm listening to.. someone moving around outside.

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
On my way back home. I was... coming home.

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
A game I downloaded.

9. What are you wearing?
A t-shirt and jeans.

10. Did you dream last night?
I didn't dream.

11. When did you last laugh?
At school.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
My calender!

13. Seen anything weird lately?
I see lots of weird things. xD you'll have to be more specific!

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Am I being graded on this?

15. What is the last film you watched?
A feature about geisha.

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A home for my family.

17. Tell me something about yourself I didn't know.
I watch a lot more television than I should.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you change?
All of my friends and family would be happy.

19. Do you like to dance?
Not really.

20. George Bush:
...who?

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Erm... Aiko? Maybe. I like Mayumi, too.

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
I dunno.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
No.. I'd miss my friends and family too much.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
I don't know!

FORTY QUESTIONS YOU'VE NEVER BEEN ASKED IN A SURVEY

1. Do you know anyone in Prison?
Not unless someone got picked up between now and third period. Guys...?

2. Have you ever logged onto a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush's myspace?
Nope.

3. When is the last time you ate Peanut butter and jelly?
Umm. Two days ago.

4. Do you have a desk in your room?
Yep.

5. Have you ever gotten naked at a party?
No.

6. What kind of car insurance do you have?
None! :D

7. Are you named after one of your parents or grandparents?
I doubt it.

8. Does your first significant other still live in the same town as you?
I've never had a signifigant other, ne. >>;

9. Do you throw up gang signs?
...what?

10. Have you ever broken a rib?
Umm. Not to my knowledge.

11. Would you rather be a girl or a guy?
I like being a girl.

12. Who is the most spoiled person you know?
Hmmm...

13. Would you rather have a million dollars or true love?
True love. ^_^

14. Have you ever had sex in church?
Ehh? No!

15. Is your boyfriend/girlfriend a marine?
..these questions are strange.

16. Do you watch the Grammy's?
No.

17. Would you ever work for the border patrol?
No thanks.

18. How would you describe your last relationship as?
N/A. Ha.

19. Would you rather date someone 2 years older then you or 2 years younger?
Older.

20. Have you ever had a eating disorder?
Not a real one, ha.

21. Do you have a porn collection?
No.

22. How many proms have you been to in your life?
None.

23. Have you ever been in a inter-racial relationship?
N/A. No relationships, remember? :3

24. Is your birthday on a holiday?
Nope.

25. Are you old enough to vote?
No.

26. Do you have any friends or family in the War right now?
Nope.

27. Are you a vegetarian?
No.

28. Apparently there is no question 28...

29.Do you like polar bears?
Sure. They're cute!

30. Are you straight edge?
Eh?

31. What kind of birth control do you use?
I.. don't use.. *blush*

32. What slang word do you call marijuana?
I.. don't talk about it, so.

33. Are you an atheist?
No.

34. Did you lose your virginity to your neighbor?
Wh-what? No.

35. Did or do you think your childhood dreams will come true?
No.

36. Do you wear your sweetie's clothes?
I don't have a sweetie.

37. What's your opinion on gold diggers?
*shrug*

38. Are you a country or city girl/boy?
Either. Both!

39. Is your car a 2002 or higher?
I don't have a car.

40. Do you floss daily?
Mhmm.

~

40 Off the Wall Things People May Not Know About You!!

1) What side of the heart do you draw first?
Right.

2) Can you dive without plugging your nose?
Yes.

3) What color is your phone?
Pink. :D

5) Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
I don't know.

6.) Where are you right now?
My room at home.

7) How do you feel about carrots?
I like cooked carrots, but I don't like them cold.

8) How many chairs at the dining room table?
Four.

9) Who is the best Spice Girl?
..nn?

10) Do you know what time it is?
6:57pm.

12) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
Try to figure out how to fix it, if I can.

13) What's your favorite kind of gum?
The bubble-gum flavoured kind.

14) T or F: All is fair in love and war?
False.

15) Do you have a crush on anyone?
Not really..

16) Do you use big words that you don't know the meaning to?
I try not to.

17) Do you like to sleep?
When I can.

18) Do you know which US states don't use Daylight Savings?
Er, no.

19) Do you know the song Total Eclipse of Heart?
I've heard it.

20) Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang?
Er, no. xD

21) What's something you've always wanted?
A unicorn. Okay, no, not really.

24) Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake?
Hmm. Ocean, I think.

25) Do you wear a lot of black?
No.

26) Describe your hair?
About to my shoulder-blades, medium brown color..

28) Are you an adult?
Nope!

29) Who is/are your best friend(s):
I have a lot of best friends. :D

30) Do you have a tan?
No, I'm inside way too much.

31) Are you a television addict?
A little.

32) Do you enjoy spending time with your mom?
Yes.

33) Are you a sugar freak?
Nope.

34) What is your favorite kind of movie?
Action/adventure.

35) sign?
..what?

36) Where do you wish you were right now?
I like where I am. :D

37) Who did you copy this from?
Taichi.

38) How do you know them?
He's my brother :D

39) What brand of shirt are you wearing?
Umm. I don't actually know - I cut the tag off when I got it.

40) What are your plans for the weekend?
I don't have any. *hee*

I feel... more accomplished than I should. :D

- Hikari

"It makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow..."

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 15:40:35 GMT

..I would be singing in the computer lab, but there are people here (and my English isn't that good). So I'll settle for writing the lyrics in the subject line here.

1. Hi my name is…
Yagami Hikari

2.In my life I have…
Accomplished a lot and very little, depending on who you ask.

3. The one person who can drive me nuts…
I.. could think of a few people.

4. High School…
Can be a little irritating, ne.

5. When I'm nervous…
I make an excuse to get out of the situation.

6. The last time I cried was…
The truth? ..the other day, watching TV.

7. If I were to get married right now my maid of honor/best man…
Miyako-chan!

8. My hair is…
In a messy ponytail right now. Sigh.

9. When I was 5…
Chances are, I was sick with something.

10. Last Christmas…
Was pretty fun.

11. I should be…
Writing something for a class, but.. it's slow going.

12. When I look down I see…
The keyboard, the mouse..

13. The craziest recent event was…
Going to the mall with Miyako, naturally.

14. If I were a character on 'Friends' I'd be…
I've never seen that show.

15. By this time next year…
It's hard to think that far ahead! Don't ask such hard questions!

16. My current gripes…
School. What else? School owns my life right now.

17. I have a hard time understanding…
...theoretical physics?

18. There's this guy I know who...
Is completely crazy. I'll let you guess which. ;D

19. You know I like you when…
I hang out with you as often as I can.

20. If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be…
Taichi, probably. Well, and my parents.

21. Take my advice…
When you're feeling upset, take a few minutes to focus on the problem in private, so that when you're around people, you won't blow up on them needlessly.

22. My ideal breakfast…
Orange juice and toast with jam.

23. If you visited the place I was born…
Umm...

24. I plan to visit someone…
I don't think I have any plans right now...

25. If you spend the night at my house…
We can stay up late watching bad television, right?

26. I'd stop my wedding if…
Umm... the groom was absent? *hee*

27. The world could do without…
Cruelty.

28. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than…
That's gross. ><; And um... do something to make my friends hate me.

29. Most recent thing I've bought myself…
Er.. I think it was an energy drink last.. Thursday.

30. Most recent thing someone else bought for me…
I don't really remember.

31. My favorite blonde is…
Aw, you're making me choose?

32. My favorite brunette is…
See above.

33. My favorite bald guy is…
...er..

34. My middle name is…
I don't have one.

35. This morning I…
Tripped over some books and hurt my knee, and listened to music.

36. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are…
Fish! Flying fish! ..I've seen them on tv.

37. Once, at a bar…
I've never been to a bar.

38. Last night I was…
Listening to music and trying to get rid of the awful headache I had.

39. There's this girl I know who…
Is really nice to me :D

40: I don't know…
A lot of things.

41. A better name for me would be…
I think my name is a good one for me.

42. If I ever go back to school I'll say…
"So, here I am again!" But do you mean for a reunion or something, or for college?

43. my birthday is…
Usually really fun.

44. What I really want for Valentine's Day is…
Those little candy hearts are really good.

45. I'm wearing…
My school uniform. And a little cat pin. :D

46. Tomorrow I am…
Going to be in school again.

47. The last thing I ate was...
I haven't eaten anything yet today.

48. I really want to learn...
Oh, lots of things! But not the aforementioned theoretical physics.

I need to stop listening to English music from off the internet, on a completely different note. I think it's messing with my braaaain.

- 'Kari

[edit]

..on a second thought, I'll keep the English music. As much as I love Glay, if I keep listening to "Yuuwaku", I'm going to start singing it. ;D

But I want my Larc~en~Ciel CD, and it's not here. Sigh.

Oh well! Back to work!

So, here we are.

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 07:55:08 GMT

So, here I am. I haven't written anything here for a long time, huh? But I've been really busy. School hasn't been giving me any breaks! It's alright, because it's more time-consuming than anything.. it's still kind of a pain, though. All I've been doing lately is studying!

Well, studying and playing on the computer. It goes both ways, I guess. I'm not gonna pretend that I'm up at 3am on a Saturday studying (even I call it a night before that, when it comes to studying).

Anyway, I haven't seen anyone in ages... anyone feel like rescuing me from this awful studying?

- Hikari

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 22:05:21 GMT

*sigh* Yet another winter cold. I've been prone to getting them, ever since I was a little girl...I thought I was growing stronger, but here I am again, unable to leave my bed, sneezes and coughing and feeling all-around miserable...

Oniichan's been over a lot, with Jun-san, which is really nice. Jun-san cooked me hot soup that was really delicious, I can't thank her enough, and Oniichan found me this really cool RPG and set it up on my laptop so I can play from my bed. Normally I don't like games, because they're all about hurting people with weapons, but this one is a detective story, and it's really interesting. We have to find out the mystery behind the ghost story of "The Girl in Back", and the connection between two murders that happened fifteen years apart...it's a really ! The game is about thirteen hours long, if you play it straight through, and I'm only on chapter eight... I think the Principal Urabe is hiding something!

I miss everyone, though. Daisuke-kun is off in France, and Takeru-kun is always in New York City visiting Michael-san...I sort of miss my friends being around, but it's not like everything can stay the same, can it?

Oh! More soup! Thank you, Jun-san!

PRIVATE

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 15:25:03 GMT

It's enough for me just to be close.

I don't need to say anything, I don't need to make it clear. I don't need to do anything else, I don't need to say anything out loud.

When a person who is in love privately says something out loud, and the other person agrees and feels the same way, then they have a relationship, that time when they go together for a while, but then they fall back out, they hurt each other, they can't get back to where they are. And it hurts them, both, and it hurts everyone around them, and there's just so much, so much overwhelming everyone...people shatter, when they fall out of love, and everyone else shatters around with them, trying to help them, and it just...all...hurts.

Everyone hurts each other; everyone hurts a person they loved more than life itself. Love seems foolish, then; why go into a relationship, something selfish, meant only for your pleasure, when you'll just end up hurting someone else?

So I don't have to say anything. I'll just watch, and wait, and love the best I can. Nobody needs to know.

CLOSED - Takeru

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 23:44:35 GMT

Takeru-kun, I tried calling you about six times, but you never picked up.

Is there anything I can do?

CLOSED - Daisuke

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 23:43:40 GMT

Daisuke-kun, if you need to talk, I'm here...

I know how you must be feeling, after all.

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 01:10:10 GMT

I'm sorry, I've been so busy taking care of Jun-san, I've forgotten about everything else. Even schoolwork...

I can't remember when I was last so scared.

CLOSED - Taichi

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 03:44:25 GMT

Um, Oniichan?

Do you...need to talk?

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 22:31:06 GMT

I'm so busy from school and everything...I guess everyone else is, too, I barely even see 'Niichan anymore.

Does it ever end?

Well, Daisuke-kun's birthday is soon, so at least that will be fun...

PRIVATE

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 02:59:12 GMT

Oniichan's in America with Yamato-san, Sora-san and Yamato-san went out on a date, Catherine-san's visiting Michael-san, Takeru-kun and Daisuke-kun have been practically living together, Iori-kun spends all of his time with Ken-san, he's not even detachable, and Miyako-chan's been following them around, Jyou-san hasn't responded to my post because he's always with Mimi-san, Koushirou-san is always on his computer, and even he might have someone...and Jun-san's always working, I'm afraid of bothering her.

Everyone has someone, or is too wrapped up in something else to bother.

I think Iori-kun thinks I'm jealous of him and Ken-san...he's as much said so several times, whenever we hang out in a group. And Ken-san just smirks...is that what's bothering me about them? No, there is something wrong there, some sort of taint that tastes almost metallic. The two of them together is just wrong somehow, though I can't say why exactly, and I am genuinely worried about them. For them.

But his comments about me "fawning" over Takeru-kun and Daisuke-kun...might be a little more true than I realized. Him saying that made me so angry, I couldn't even respond...I love them, and I'm always with them, because they're my friends, and they love me, too. But neither of them are in love with me...maybe I'm just watching them, so that I know what love looks like, if ever I find it.

Maybe I'm just watching them, so that some of their love might rub off on me.

[CLOSED - Takeru, Daisuke, Miyako]

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 13:22:48 GMT

Have any of you noticed something weird about Iori-kun lately? Ever since he's been hanging out with Ken-san so much, he's really changed. I'm really worried!

[CLOSED - Jyou]

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 13:21:52 GMT

Jyou-san, I'm so confused right now, and you're the only person I can think of who can help me, because you always give such good advice, and you're also really far away.

Jun-san has become one of my really good friends, ever since she found Alice, and I really like her a lot. But when we were talking last week about her coming to dinner, she said something that made me think...think that she liked Oniichan, and if she liked Oniichan, then I want her to be happy. But I was really upset, for some weird reason, and I was both happy and sad when Oniichan had soccer practice and couldn't come.

So I cooked dinner, and we talked for a long time, and I asked her, just to be sure, if she liked Oniichan, and she just looked at me with a confused expression on her face, and then she laughed and said "no, I don't like men," and told me about how she was in love with a girl...but that the girl liked someone else. And it felt all the while like my heart was beating really fast, and I couldn't control it, so I changed the topic to neutral matters.

Jyou-san, what's wrong with me?

[CLOSED - Taichi]

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 20:26:18 GMT

Oniichan...I have a question for you...

~~Would you...I mean, have you ever...would you have ever considered...~~

~~Do you like~~

~~Could you~~

What do you think of Jun-san?

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 21:12:42 GMT

The zoo was so much fun, Jun-san! Thanks for suggesting it! I'm busy cooking for dinner tonight -- I bet Oniichan will be around for it, too, he's such a pig. ^_^

Has anyone seen Ken-san around, by the way? I wanted him to help me with my algebra homework, he's so good at all kinds of mathematics and I can't seem to wrap my head around the quadratic formula. Ken-san's usually good about helping me out with the tough parts, but I haven't seen him at school...

Closed - Takeru

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 16:45:52 GMT

Takeru-kun! Are you there? I need your help!

Closed - Jun

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 01:17:53 GMT

Jun-san, I was walking by your work today and I think I saw you, but you seemed to be so angry, I didn't want to interrupt.

Is everything okay? I'm worried for you...

PRIVATE

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 02:46:51 GMT

I still can't believe it, Yamato-san is back, he's back!

He showed up at the library, near closing time. When he came up to me, I was so surprised, I dropped my pencil. I wanted -- this is terrible to say, but I wanted to slap him. He'd been so callous, just disappearing without a thought to how we would all feel! I was so angry, I even started yelling at him! But then he asked me to get coffee, and even though I like chocolate better I went with him, and we talked for a long time.

Yamato-san seems so different, so strange...besides the hair, which is SO SHORT! But even beyond that, he seems very changed...his whole personality seems less angry, though still very intense -- I suppose 'focused' would be the right word for it? He's...maybe centered. He even asked about Oniichan, he never would have before.

He did ask me not to tell Takeru-kun. I can't help but think that's wrong -- they're brothers, shouldn't he go talk to him first? Why me? But I guess I won't bother him about it...I'll just hope that he tells Takeru-kun soon!

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 19:31:17 GMT

I've neglected this journal for ever so long, I'm not quite sure how -- I've been trying to avoid using the computer at home. I use it all day at work, you see, and it makes my eyes hurt a little bit to stare at it all the time.

Oh! Did I not tell anyone? I got a summer job at the library, so that I could buy some things for myself without having to ask Kaachan. I thought it would be mostly putting books on the shelves, and there is some of that, but it's mostly done on computers nowadays. Everything is always on computers...

Well! I'm just going to post some memes that Iori-kun did as well, and then I've got to run!

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have medium extroversion.
You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.
Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.
But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time."

Conscientiousness:

You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

On which planet you should live on?

Which flower are you?

I like the flower one the best...^_^

Sat, 27 May 2006 21:31:20 GMT

Aiya, I'm so sick of doing work. School seems to stretch even longer...so much to do. *sigh* And I've been sick, too, so it just seems to all pile up...

We should take a break in the digital world when school is over!

PRIVATE

Tue, 09 May 2006 01:47:52 GMT

I left my journal logged in on my computer, and 'Kaachan read it. Today after school she was asking me all these questions, mostly about Takeru-kun and Daisuke-kun. She was also really mad about some comment I'd made about her, so long ago.

I just felt so bad. This is my private journal! How dare someone read my private thoughts -- my own precious feelings -- and then question me about them? I wrote what I felt, not because I was expecting anyone to read what I wrote...

And then she didn't even notice that I was in pain. That hurt the most.

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 15:40:26 GMT

Jun-san's party was so much fun! It was so wonderful to see everyone in different costumes -- everyone looked so nice! Though Takeru-kun and Daisuke-kun looked a little flustered in their costumes, they still made a great pauir. And Catherine-san and Wallace-san were lovely together, too...it's so sad that Wallace-san had to go back to America, but we'll all see him again soon, I'm sure of it!

Also, Jun-san and I finally had a chance to exchange our birthday presents. During the ball, we went outside for a brief while, because she'd wanted to do it privately. It's very strange, but we managed to get each other matching presents, without telling the other...I gave her a silver necklace with a heart-shaped charm, because she has such a kind heart! And without me telling her, or even dropping hints, she gave me a beautiful necklace with a silver kitten on it, because of Alice...it was so sweet, she looked at me and said, "because she's why we really began to become friends." And I smiled at her, and I said, "I'm glad we have!" and she nodded, and then we spoke a little about the stars, although after a while we went in because I was afraid that Jun-san would be getting cold in her costume, because it wasn't covering very much.

I'm so glad that Jun-san and I have become good friends! It gives me a very warm feeling, almost like I have an Oneechan at last!

But the ball was a great idea, and now that it's spring, it's such wonderful weather, everyone's cheering up -- even Oniichan! (How silly, he got injured and so he didn't want to talk to anyone at all...) I just have one question about the ball: I could figure out who most of the people in the costumes were, but who was that masked man? I couldn't recognize him at all...a real mystery at the mystery ball!